Letters to Myself-3/28/2008

They have a new technology that puts GPS tracking systems in phones. This system is offered by Sprint-Nextel and Verizon and Apple will soon come out with one. I think I would like to get one of these for me and Madelyn because then whenever I'm out late working she won't believe I'm out playing her dirty like she sometimes believes and vice-versa. I wonder if Madelyn would be willing to do this? Or will she be afraid to be caught out there?

The FDA is studying whether an allergy medication "Sinuiand" can be linked to suicide. I was wondering if I could sue the state and the company if I was prescribed this medication while in DOCS and my aggressive behavior during my last bid was connected to the side affects of this medication.

Today a baby was kidnapped by Jennifer Lacham in Sanford, Florida, in a hospital. The baby was only one day old; I can't even imagine how I would react if this had happened to my daughter.

While I was writing this they opened my cell for chow; I hadn't even noticed that they were running chow already.

I really don't understand how my so-called family can forget about me so easily; when I was  home I always was there for them. It's funny how disloyal people can be. I stood by Madelyn and loved her and even had a baby with her but she was the first one to abandon me in my time of need. Every time the mail passes my cell and I get nothing I hurt a little bit more; sometimes I hurt so much that it actually feels physical...I get a pain in my heart. It's times like this that make me question whether or not I chose to be with the wrong woman. I mean I had the opportunity to be with other women and I believe that they wouldn't have abandoned me just because I'm in prison. I can't believe that I fell in love with a woman who doesn't even care about me and has probably already moved on with her life.