If You'd Look Into My Eyes (Poetry-6/1999)

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see, stories I'm afraid to tell,
stories of pain that make life seem like hell.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see the pain my smile attempts to hide,
the loneliness and hurt I feel inside.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see the ones I've loved in life,
the ones I've lost faster than the roll of dice.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see all those who's run out on me,
even those I hate but would give anything to see.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see how many I've lost,
for which, everyday, I pay a heavy cost.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see the ones I hold most high,
the ones I love more than life but always die.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see the dreams that's been shattered,
that at one time did, but no longer matter.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see the lovers which have slipped away,
which I no longer see, but still think of every day.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see all the friends I had while home,
which remind me of abandonment as I sit here all alone.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see all the women I've had in bed,
who preferred not to remember, so forgot me instead.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd feel all the pain which I feel,
when everyone I trust in, doesn't keep it real.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see how I wish for someone who'd care,
someone..anyone, who'd even care enough to stare.

If you'd look into my eyes:
   You'd see the love I hold inside,
enough love to fill the big blue skies.
   This one secret my eyes would never hide......

   ......If you'd only look into my eyes!