I'm suffering from "writer's block" but they say in order to overcome writer's block you have to keep writing until you get back on message so here I am. All I keep thinking about is how I'm gonna do my best to earn my Certificate in General Business so that I could better my chances to go home to my daughter.
Everything I do is so that I could make my chances better and better because I know that everything must be hard for Madelyn right now. It's hard to find jobs and prices are rising due to the fucked up economy. Also, I'm afraid that eventually the loneliness will overwhelm Madelyn and she'll just move on to another man, forgetting about me...us.
I worry that if she moves on I'll be pushed out of my daughter's life and another man will called "Daddy". These are the things I keep thinking about as I try my best to get home as soon as I can so that I could prevent it. I really hope that Madelyn is much stronger than that and expresses a stronger sense of loyalty to our relationship considering all the good memories we have together and the fact that Destany is our first child and we shared in her creation. I just wish she would write me; that hurts the most: abandonment or my sense of abandonment.
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