It's funny how we as people are so judgmental of people who don't do things like everyone else. It's crazy how the fact that I choose to stay to myself and just do my time so that I could go home as soon as possible is looked at as if I'm afraid. Is it really a show of fear to want to get home to my daughter? Is it so bad to want to stay out of trouble so that I could finally do good things in life? It seems like people are so worried about the way I choose to do my own bid; don't they have their own bids to worry about?
I regret that I used to think that way. I used to think that staying out of the jailhouse politics was wrong but now I can see that it is just insane for someone to make another's way of life a priority in yours simply because you don't agree with how they live it. I wish other's would see how stupid it is for them to try to control other's way of life; can't no one tell me how to live my life unless I let them and I refuse to let anyone control mine. My daughter is my number one priority and if I have to risk being ostracized from criminal circles or circles of alleged friends in order to stay out of trouble than so be it.
I vow to do whatever is best for my daughter and one of the things that is best for my daughter is for me to remain free so that I can be there to help her eat, live, and learn; i can't do nothing for her from in here. for the rest of my life, I will remember that everything I do will not only effect me but also effect her and so my decisions will always be with that in mind.
No comments:
Post a Comment